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  • Writer's pictureMelissa Maxx

Please Allow Me To Introduce Myself...

Updated: Mar 7, 2021

My name is Melissa. I am a former Rock Radio DJ and TV host, an animal lover, cat mom, loud laugher, picture taker, traveler, avid reader and student of people, life and myself.


The past few years have been tough for me, and yet some of the most beautiful, educational and inspirational years of my life.


Two years ago, I left my home in Los Angeles, my family of friends, my long-term job as a DJ at radio station KLOS, and pretty much everything I thought defined me.

After being diagnosed with a debilitating Autoimmune Disease I was falling apart at the seams physically and emotionally. My big brother encouraged me to move to Florida to get the love, nurturing and support I had disconnected from when I left home at 18.


Fast forward a year and things were looking up. I sought help from a functional doctor and left what in some ways had become a toxic work environment and a toxic city. My Hashimoto's Disease was in remission. I rebuilt bonds with my family, and most of all re-connected with myself for possibly the first time in my life.


Having re-gained my physical and emotional health, I was feeling the best I had ever felt. I got a job as a DJ at radio station "The Shark" in Miami, where I met some of the most amazing, talented and supportive people I had ever worked with. I was starting to date, make friends, and much to my surprise, fall in love with Florida.


I went back to Los Angeles in February 2020 to make peace with a city I had had a "complicated" relationship with. I went back to some of my favorite places and saw some of my favorite people. I was reminded what I loved about the city, and what I hated. After a short visit, during which I celebrated my birthday, I walked away at peace.


Little did I know what was around the corner. Just three weeks later the world was in chaos. The pandemic, lockdowns, fear and uncertainty, the loss of my radio job and ultimately a decades long broadcasting career were things I had never seen coming. I hunkered down, practiced self-care. stress-management and all of the hyphenated buzz words, and counted my blessings.


Once again, little did I know what was around the corner. One morning in August I got a text message from my frantic sister-in-law. A few hours earlier my perfectly healthy brother, and only sibling, had suffered sudden cardiac arrest. He was on life support. She was with the Chaplain.


His body was there, but he was gone.


We spent the next few days trying to wrap our brains around the unfathomable.The situation was made even more surreal by the fact we couldn't be with him because of COVID. The doctors and health care workers were absolutely amazing, suddenly taking on roles they hadn't been trained for as therapists and grief counselors. They played Beatles music for him as we requested, held the phone in front of him for as long as we needed as we face-timed with him, alternating between begging him to come back to us, and telling him if him if he needed to, it was ok to let go.


On August 17, 2020 we helped him make that decision. We were thankfully, finally, able to see him to say goodbye in person.


He was an organ donor and in his final act of generosity helped many people.


We could not have a funeral. We had a Zoom memorial service. To this day I have not seen nor hugged my extended family or friends.


And here I am today.


I have lived my whole life with goals, aspirations, and dreams for the future. I have none of those anymore. It's not as dire as it sounds. In some ways it's a gift. The only thing we are promised is now, this very moment.We might as well live in the now fully, something that we can't do if we are looking elsewhere.


I have lost,... but I AM found.


To quote Ram Dass, "The game is not about becoming somebody, it's about becoming nobody."


I get it now.




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Joe Kelly
Joe Kelly
18 Haz 2021

What an inspiring introduction. Your website is the freshest resource I have discovered in decades. Thank you.

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Melissa Maxx
Melissa Maxx
25 Haz 2021
Şu kişiye cevap veriliyor:

Thank you so much! I just started in January and am trying to get the word out. Can I ask how you found it? Thank you again! 🙏

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michele gould
michele gould
07 Nis 2021

Thank you for showing me I'm not the only one living life "in a shell". For 45 yrs I took care of everyone, went 200 mph from day to night. Then boom, cancer. And where did everyone go? Haven't a clue. But now trying to remember who I am. The real me, not mom, wife, daughter,sister,friend. I know she's still in there somewhere.

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Melissa Maxx
Melissa Maxx
07 Nis 2021
Şu kişiye cevap veriliyor:

She IS and it’s so great you are looking for her! Unfortunately it sometimes takes traumas and tragedy to get us to wake up and stop sleep walking, but as long as we are breathing it’s not too late. I’m working on it everyday, and I’ll be honest, sometimes I have a really hard time with it, but it is in a weird way very liberating and exciting!

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missdebbie2015
09 Oca 2021

Made me choke up reading this. One day at a time we all take and sending you blessings and continued healing vibes ♥

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Melissa Maxx
Melissa Maxx
09 Oca 2021
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One day at a time, one minute at a time, one moment at a time :) Thank you, and happy new year to you and yours! xo-m

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c_pinkman
08 Oca 2021

Your writing is as beautiful as your honesty. It seems the further you move, the closer we get, my soul sister! love you. xo

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Melissa Maxx
Melissa Maxx
09 Oca 2021
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You said to me once in terms of friends "some people are just different". I agree! Thank you for the lovely words. Love you xo

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jenniferangelson444
08 Oca 2021

I am in awe of your story and I can’t wait for all the gifts you have ahead in 2021

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Melissa Maxx
Melissa Maxx
08 Oca 2021
Şu kişiye cevap veriliyor:

Thank you, Jennifer! I hope you are hanging in there, and that you and yours are healthy and happy, here's to moving forward! xo-m

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